I don't have to be special to have a natural birth. That's the beauty of it. It's normal. Or it should be. I don't have be extraordinary. Things don't have to be just right. Things can be rough around the edges. In fact, they will be. Ordinary women have been having natural births for thousands of years. Not SuperWoman. She doesn't exist.
When people say how "brave" I am, or how "strong" I am, it is easy to fall back into the cultural belief that not just anyone can do this. And that its risky in some way. It's not true, and that way of thinking is not helping me right now. Natural birth is normal. God designed my body to give birth, and I can do it.
I am thankful for doctors that will be there in case of an emergency or something abnormal. If the end result is a hospital birth, a c-section, or other less invasive interventions, I will be thankful. I will not feel like I've failed myself or that I'm a bad mom. There are exceptions to the Rule of Normal, and I will not beat myself up if this birth is an exception. But unless I see evidence of that, I am going to move forward with the belief that this birth will be normal. Normal! Do you hear me?!
I will not beat myself up if I lose my resolve and head to the hospital because in the moment I feel its too hard. I don't want to think about that one, but I need to let my future self know that its okay. So, Future Self: It's okay. You didn't fail. You did what you felt like you had to do in the moment, and it's okay.
Just a little bit of self-talk in response to my fears.
You're welcome for letting you listen in. Anytime.